Breaking the Limit
Did you ever have one of those situations where you’ve hit your limit before you realized anything was wrong? It doesn’t even have to be a situation where you have a low limit either. It has happened to me a few too many times lately, and I find it quite bothersome. I used to be of the opinion that I was very aware of these type of things and could address issues before I hit my limit. That has not been the case lately, and it has me quite worried.
Now, it could be a number of things that is preventing me from picking up on this stuff. For starters, I’m under a lot of stress with finals and end of the semester events. Maybe because I’m so stressed out I’m completely missing the signals I’d normally pickup. Another possibility as that the events/people/person/situations that are pushing me to my limit are uncharted or mostly uncharted areas, and I simply don’t have the experience to pick up on when I’m about to cross my limit. Of course, it could just be that I’ve lost my touch and don’t notice these things anymore either.
Regardless of why and how, it’s a serious problem. When I do hit my limit, I’m not a very nice person, or at least not a very nice person towards the person(s) that got me to/past the limit in the first place. I’d rather not be like that, because it’s not like me to be a mean person (that is not to say that I don’t have my mean streaks). Sadly, when I am mean, I feel that it greatly overshadows all the nice things I’ve done for people since the last “mean” cycle. That seems to imply that me being mean happens often, or on some regular cycle, which isn’t the case. It’s just that as of late it’s happened a bit more than I’d like to admit.
I’m not really looking for solutions to this problem from others. This post was really just me venting, while I try to identify indicators that I was rapidly approaching my limit so this doesn’t happen again. Hindsight is a great tool here. Here’s hoping that I can do that quickly rather than slowly…
